Hand holding the word "Hope"
Ideas and Musings

The Problem of Hope

I’m a software tester. For me to fulfill my duty and obligation to my company, I need software to test. It’s kind of a requirement. We got a new CEO and thing have been changing. For one thing, there is a new focus on getting things in the backlog done.…

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Teddy Bear with a bandage on it's head. Text Sick again.
My Noodle

Sick…Still…

I find myself falling sick again, or maybe still. Yes, it’s my default mode and has been ever since I was attacked by that acting teacher and his students. PTSD can do a number on the body, and the mind. I’m exhausted. Part of me questions writing about all of…

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Door lock with text "is it locked?"
My Noodle

Out of Control

I glance over at the front door. I look at the lock. Yes, it’s still locked. Good. This is the third time I’ve looked at that lock this evening, and I know that when it’s time to go to bed, I’ll look at it again. I’ve tried to not look.…

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Windows to Heaven and Hell
Ideas and Musings

Heaven? Hell?

I am sad. Very sad. I found a couple of days ago that my friend and co-worker, Jeff, had lost his battle with cancer. After losing my Uncle Jerry and having friends lose their family members, and having several friends even lose their babies in utero, it’s all just too…

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